Who will do the pouring?

It was 6:30am.  I woke up in shock at first that I had slept so long and then calmed myself. I had gone to bed after 1am and my son was still up doing his “thing” for a few more hours.  He tests before he goes to bed so it was probably just the right time to test. And I was right…

I checked, doing my best to stay 3/4 asleep so I could doze instantly when I returned to bed.  He was low.  No such sleeping allowed. I got a glass of juice and told him to drink.  I continued my routine of heading back to my room to wait for 15 minutes.  As I headed back however, I began to think…what will he do when I am not there to wake him and bring him juice? I know that many adults with Type 1 diabetes handle it fine.  They have glucose or juice boxes by their beds. They wake up and deal with it. Its part of their lives…but this is my kid. He is not an adult that I know.  No matter how big he gets he’s my little boy.

I hope that he will wake on his own. I know he has done it (and complained about this new-found ability) when he was away from me. It still makes me worried. My son is very private about his diabetes. He is also very independent.  That is a good thing and a terrible thing for a mom.  I know he has good friends. I know that they would watch for him if he was living with one of them…but what if he wants to live alone? Well, he should have that right! But as his mom, I worry. I know it will sort itself out. I can’t borrow worry. I can’t predict the future.  At night, nightmares rear their heads though.

Its daytime now.  Time to focus on the today…like getting him to take out the garbage and Swifter the floors! He will soon be 16 and there will be enough to worry about with him learning how to drive.  I will save the worry about how he will handle nights alone for a few more years…or another late night/early morning low worrying session!

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2 thoughts on “Who will do the pouring?”

  1. a fear/worry all parents of cwd have. Still like you said – there are countless adults with diabetes that do it and Im certain (I have to be) that when my kids leave the nest they too will do it.
    honestly I almost feel like the driving is scarier – not that you needed me to say that. Thankfully I have a few more years and technology is advancing faster than the years are passing. I have hope and faith all will be well for my kids, for all our kids.
    Great post.

  2. People with hypoglycemic unawareness need somebody in bed with them watching over them. It’s reality. My husband had a 1.8 this week and a 2 that was false. He was actually 10.2 by the bg meter when the sensor said 2. The 1.8 was real enough according to the bg meter, but he was still concious enough to drink milk or juice so no worries. You still need somebody around to catch those lows though and gallop for the juice. Read “Needles” to see what hypoglycemic unawareness can do.

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